Dear Me,
Yep that's right, I am you only much older and probably not much wiser. Right now you are in 8th grade. What an awful year that was. I won't sugar coat it for you, that year really did suck and it won't get much better until your junior year of high school.
So what has happened already.... well you probably just figured out that your parents want to move to Illinois. It switched from Texas, which is where they should have gone, to Illinois after Dean went to see Deanna and Alyssa. Trust me that move doesn't last long. You will be in Illinois for about a month before complete chaos strikes and you will then move to Ohio. It won't get any better there. That tan you have; it will disappear completely and will never return. Love it right now, admire that golden tan. You will also cut your foot open on Ma'ams fence. Do not freak out completely it is only 10 stitches, and accept the secret milky way that your mom has stashed in her purse.
Ohio sucks, but when you go back to visit later in life, you will realize that it was the best lesson you could ever be taught. It snows there, you will eat fried bologna, and salmon patties, but keep in mind that that is all you have to eat. Your mom will go through some hard times, but Michael will become one of your closer friends starting at this point on. Plus in 10 short months you will be back in AZ.
Now when you get to high school. Leave your friends at Westwood be. The friends you made at Carson will become few and far between. Some will become unrecognizable, others will hurt you, and most will just fade away with time. Make more friends at McClintock! I know in your mind that is like asking you to jump in a ball pit filled with glass. But you need to. Make friends with the people that you least expect to. put yourself out there more. You will meet Amanda, and you two will become the best of friends. Keep working on that friendship. Oh and your sophomore year, seventh period health class, become friends with Johnny. He will be the best relationship you will have ever have. But eventually your perpetual fear of hurting someone else's feelings will cause you to end that one.
Now the biggest obstacle you face is A. She will move in with you guys once you are back in AZ. And sadly a lot of the attention that you received will be placed on to her. Do yourself the favor and reach out to your mom, guidance counselors, and favorite teachers about college. You royally screwed up by not doing it the first time. A may have the advantage of taking up your time with your parents, but you need to focus on the bigger picture. And that picture is you and your brothers.
Life is ok at 24. We may not have all of our shit together, but that is perfectly acceptable. We will go through plenty of bad relationships, and plenty of bad situations. But you learn from them and become this pretty ok person. Just don't be scared to live a little more.
Oh and your mother is always right. Even when you think she is doing something wrong, or intrusive, or even to be annoying. She does it because she loves you.
Love Always,
The 24 year old Kylea
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